Showing posts with label Sam. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Sam. Show all posts

Sunday, February 16, 2014

"There is something in the Olympics, indefinable, springing from the soul, that must be preserved."

It should be of no surprise to anyone who follows me on literally any form of social media or has interacted with me in the past week that I am completely addicted to the Olympic games.  I work it in to practically every conversation, I haven't seen an channel other than an NBC affiliate in over a week, and I recite off facts like I have been studying Olympic athletes and not American Politics for the past year and a half.

There is something that just gets to me every single time.

There is no one reason why I love the Olympics like I do. My overwhelming sense of patriotism aside, I often find myself cheering for other country's athletes, holding my breath for them just as I do for our own champions. Why? Because if the Olympics teaches us anything (although I think it teaches a lot), it is that we are all infallibly human. No country is exempt (except maybe the Netherlands in speed-skating, I mean WHAT is that?). We all have the capacity to be extraordinary, but we are not perfect. We can have perfect moments, perfect ten performances, but we also wobble on our way there. We go right when left would have been better. We step forward when we should have stepped back. To say that sports is the great equalizer is a bit of a stretch given the high cost associated with many of these Olympic events, but in other ways it most certainly is.

This is part of what is commonly known as the "Olympic spirit." The Olympic spirit is evident every day, when athletes from countries time zones apart embrace at a finish line or when a coach steps onto the snow to give a ski to another country's competitor. These things happen because these competitors know how hard it was to get here, because they got there too. They know the struggles and the early mornings. The pain and agony of defeat and the sweet taste of victory.

While many tune in to see their country dominate in a particular sport and follow the medal count like maniacs, we should feel privileged to be a part of this Olympic experience. To see not only superior athleticism, but to see such a pure display of the human condition. It is not just about winning, it is about showing up.

For two weeks, we get to see Olympians from various countries show immense passion and pride in what they do. We hear their stories, too, and we cannot help but be moved. We see their falls and their perseverance, and we can see ourselves in those moments. We are reminded in those moments, both the victories and the defeats, just how human we ALL are. Just how alike we all are, regardless of nationality.

Maybe I have never fallen after attempting a quad or been beaten by .01 seconds by a fellow skier, but I have been down, been counted out, or been just beaten out. I am almost certain you all could say the same. In those moments when your heart stops, and maybe breaks, when you avert your eyes and cringe at what is happening on the screen, when you become filled with overwhelming empathy for someone you've never met, never talked to, or seen outside of a television broadcast; that's all due to the fact that you can feel it because you've been there and my goodness do you know how that hurts. But then they get up, they fight on, the finish and you empathize again because you know that was one of the most important lessons you might ever learn.

In life you're going to crash, sometimes hard, but it's all about how you get back up. One mistake isn't going to define you, as long as you don't let it. (Jeremy Abbott, anyone?)

Overall, the Olympics are 16 days of life lesson after life lesson, all of which we would be foolish not to learn. The best you is possible, you just can never, ever, ever give up. Maybe on February 24 we will remember that we disagree with the politics of a certain country or that a certain country disagrees with us, but for now may we seize this opportunity to stand in awe of, and be inspired by what can be accomplished when we recognize our humanity and use it to pick ourselves and others back up when we fall.

Now, all that being said, I wouldn't be opposed to a few more medals for Team USA!

Clothed in awe, inspiration, and patriotism,
Sam

Sunday, August 18, 2013

325,600 Minutes Later.

My inaugural post here is going to be a long one. Buckle up.

Today marks the one year anniversary of my move to DC. It is bizarre to think about because in the most cliche way it really does feel like yesterday. I can still see myself laying on my parents bed contemplating out-loud if I was making the right decision and my mom responding, " Well, we already rented the van so,..." (Always encouraging, Mom.) This wasn't the first time I had left home for a destination 250 miles away; however, it felt completely different. This time I wasn't purchasing matching bedding and trash cans. This time I was packing everything and leaving "for good." This was a, "I think we're going to need a U-Haul" kind of move. This was something that I both acknowledged and attempted to forget all at once. I cleaned out all my closets. I went through my stuffed animals that had been in the attic. I even got a good-bye party out of it. While I had accepted that I would be gone for a while, my friends were less convinced. DC seemed closer to them than PA and many were under the impression I'd be home in a month. I wasn't. It wouldn't be until Thanksgiving I would see them all again. Regardless, their support in my final few days at home was amazing and beyond what I could have even imagined. Of course, that made leaving that much harder but WE packed up the van, ate our from our favorite dessert spot and said goodbye just like they do in all the movies. Then with their words of encouragement, Target gift cards, gag gifts, and promises to visit soon, I began my journey to DC. 
My last night home in New York. I am not sure how much work we actually did, but the truck did get filled.
It wasn't the living alone in a new city that kept me up at night or that formed that ball of nerves in my stomach. It was graduate school. Although I had been assured by professors and friends alike that I had what it took, I was not so sure. I read book after book and blog after blog about graduate school and became overwhelmed before the year even started. I'd like to say that the worrying was all for nothing, and in some ways maybe it was. The people? Amazing. My cohort is the most supportive group of individuals and we all have been there for each other through a wide range of life events. My professors, too, have been supportive and encouraging while still pushing me further. The school part? Well, I wasn't wrong to worry about that. From day one I seemed to be dealing with those curve-balls life likes to throw. Only Americanist? Sure. Youngest? Even better. And they kept coming.

I've also been up against that proverbial wall more times this year than ever before, because if there is one thing graduate school is good for it is making you realize how little you actually know. It is hard, and for many reasons it is more emotional than anything I have ever done. Maybe it is because of the lack of sleep or maybe it because of the intense passion needed to get this far but every day seems to have an extreme emotional response attached whether it be positive or negative. 

I read a blog post by Carly H... (known as The College Prepster - You should totally check out her blog) here, where she explains all about a breakdown she had recently and as I was reading I kept thinking, "Yup, been there." Twice this year I have had that moment. That moment where you are sitting on the floor completely overwhelmed by everything happening around you. That moment where you become convinced you've made several wrong choices and that there is no way out. Where everyone can offer platitudes and comforting words and all you can hear is your failure or the overwhelming-ness weighing down on you. It happens. It is tough and it is exhausting, BUT you get through it. You sleep for 13 hours. You cry for 3. You call your mom and you eat Shake Shack and you curse whatever got you there. You spend money you don't have and you text your best friend at 3 AM and have them curse everyone and everything with you. Then you reevaluate and you decide your next move. Then you make it. You come out the other side. You realize you do have what it takes. You become a better version of you. For me, both times the answer was to stay in school and keep with it. That doesn't have to be the right answer. The number of times I have heard someone say there is nothing wrong with quitting this year is probably greater than all the previous years combined, and they were all right. If whatever you are doing that caused you to be in this place isn't what you want then quit. Walk away. Whatever you do, do it for you. Many times this year I have gone back to this quote, 
“Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think, I'm not going to make it, but you laugh inside — remembering all the times you've felt that way.” - Charles Burkowski
Because I would get through the day, the week, the month, and, now, the year. Just like I always had.  

So here we are a year later. Thousands of pages read, hundreds of pages written, innumerable heart-to-hearts, and countless tears later. A broken shower head, a leaking ceiling, and a brief bug infestation later. New role models and mentors later, new friends later, new BEST friends later. 365 days later. It feels like forever and a blink of an eye all at once. There is so much left of this journey known as graduate school and I am by no means an expert, but I finally feel like I have some idea of how to handle it. As I get ready to begin my second year I cannot help but wonder what really lies ahead. Clearly many lessons have been learned this year both academically and personally, but I think the most important was that I am infinitely stronger than I think. All those 325,600 minutes? I've lived them. I've been awake for far too many but they've happened and man, what minutes they've been. 

It's already been an adventure and we have only just begun. 

Clothed in nostalgia and anticipation, 
Sam 

Sunday, May 12, 2013

About Us

Sam and Kelly are currently trying to survive grad school and make some sense of this crazy but beautiful world in which we live. 

Saturday, May 11, 2013

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